David and Goliath

October 7, 2014

David and Goliath: I Samuel 17:1-37

1.In this passage it says “Saul and all the Israelites were dismayed and terrified. Have you ever felt that way?

2.How did David see Goliath?

3.How did David’s older brother see him? Have you ever had a family member tear you down? How did you respond?

4.How did David’s commanding officer see him? Have you ever had a commanding officer tear you down? How did you respond?

5.How did David respond when Saul questioned his ability?


David, Mighty Warrior

October 4, 2014

David Mighty Warrior

Today I am going to start posting a Bible study about David. Please answer the questions in the comment area and I will do my best to respond.
Bless you,

David Anointed as King: I Samuel 16:1-13
Read this passage aloud. This is our first introduction to David who would later become a mighty warrior and a king.
1. What does this passage tell us about him? Write an answer in the space provided, share it with your group. Report back to the large group.

2. How did David’s family see him?

3. How did God see David?

4. How do you think David felt before he was anointed king? After he was anointed king?

5. Have you ever felt like this?

Only Grace and Mercy

February 28, 2013

Recently, while praying, God told me, There is no justice on earth, only grace and mercy.  

Then he gave me this picture:

I am a small child standing at the register of a tiny old-fashioned store. There is only one register; I am standing in front of it, the door on my right. A small wrinkled man is at the till. He is giving me the wrong change. I point this out to him and he refuses to consider that he might be wrong. Jesus is standing behind me with a gold coin the size of an apple. The coin is for me.  Not for good behavior but because Jesus wants to give it to me, because he can. Jesus does not want me to quibble about the five cents (even if I am right) because he has a gold coin for me.  Part of me feels angry. I want the clerk to acknowledge that he, not me, has made a mistake.  I feel a childish pride about my ability to do mental math. But Jesus is asking me to be like Him.  He explains that almost no one on earth is willing to own all his/her faults—including me.  Jesus stays relational, stays connected with us anyway even though he sees clearly the sin we are unwilling to fully own.

The scene replays over and over. I know that as soon as I am done paying for my small purchase Jesus and I are going to go spend the day together. We are both anticipating the day with joy. The gold coin will abundantly supply all we need. But Jesus is not in a hurry. He is not impatient. He is gently coaching me, gently teaching me and he will not be hurried. At first I am angry with the clerk but Jesus leans over my shoulder and urges me to see into the clerk’s heart. Soon I am able to see the man with compassion but as we replay the scene again, the clerk gets meaner. At one point he spits on me. But Jesus is watching, quietly urging me to look into the heart of this hurting man and not take offense or even argue. It hurts. I want to be right. But all I have to do is turn to Jesus and he wraps me in his arms and comforts me. In the last replay, the man refuses to serve me at all, but by now I am not taking the offense personally, I understand in a deep and grounded way that this is not about me. I am not troubled because I know the clerk is in pain, otherwise he would not act like this.  I see into his heart and feel compassion. He is not being the person he was made to be and this is tragic.  I am simply able to glance back at Jesus who is standing so close behind me that I feel His warm breathe and presence of His strong body beneath his robes.  Our eyes meet as I turn my head. I see how proud He is of me and I smile.  I understand that nothing is more important than being like Him. Pleasing Him. Making Him proud. He sees into our hearts and knows every sin, wounds, and blind spot that fouls our soul. But He never uses that to lord over us or despise us or make us feel less than Him. He sees us with compassion. Even though he can see into the darkest most hidden recesses of our hearts, he does not expose us. He receives what we are able to own and acknowledge and is proud of our small victories.

New book by Elizabeth Moll Stalcup

January 21, 2012

I believe that life is a journey our destinations determined by the choices we make at each crossroad. So begins, Crossroads Before Me, the new inspirational memoir from Elizabeth Moll Stalcup

Join Elizabeth as she wrestles with God, wanting to follow him but driven by a craving for love that unravels her efforts to fit in. Until she learns that striving to make it work is not what following Christ is all about and discovers, in time, the way of freedom and peace.

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Seizing The Sabbath

November 19, 2011

What have I gotten myself into?  I wondered.  I was pregnant with my second child.  If I wasn’t in labor, we were planning to move into our new house on my due date.  My dissertation, a research paper more 300 pages long, was due in less than a month.  It was a nightmare come true.  I’ve got to keep going, I told myself.  I’ve got to get through this.

That was over two decades ago.  Looking back, I can hardly believe I survived that incredibly stressful time.  Yes, we moved on my due date.  Baby Sammy was born a week late.  I got my dissertation in on time.  But it took me more than six months to recover.  In the years since that incident, I have become more and more convinced that I am not the only one who over commits herself in a big way.  It is, I’m afraid, part of life in America.  And it may be getting worse.

Research supports this observation.  “In the last 20 years, the amount of time Americans spend at their jobs has risen steadily.  Today’s work year of 1,949 hours is 163 hours–almost a month–longer than in 1969,” writes Juliet B. Schor, associate professor of economics at Harvard University, in her book The Overwooked American:  The Unexpected Decline of Leisure (Basic Books, 1991).

I am often trapped by thinking, just one more thing.  Then one more, until I am exhausted and have lost all perspective on life.  This is not what God intended.  This is why, I believe, God gave us a Sabbath and commanded us to keep it.  Not as an arbitrary rule to restrict us, but because he knew we would keep grinding away if he didn’t tell us to stop.

Sabbath keeping has never been easy.  I can’t imagine the Israelites found it easy to rest one day in seven when they were surrounded by hostile nations who worked day after day without ceasing.  I wonder if the Israelites worried that their enemies would grow stronger than they did because they had more hours in which to grow crops, build cities, and wage war.  They had to believe God would prosper them while they rested.

Today, with the pressures of our busy lives we need a Sabbath more than ever.  But how can we do it?  How can we slow down, seek God, lay aside our agenda, and enter into his rest?  In a culture that values what we do, how can we cease doing and seize the Sabbath?

1.  Purpose in your heart to obey God’s commandments, even if they don’t make sense to you or seem unreasonable.  For many years after I came to faith in Christ, I did what seemed reasonable to me instead of trying to obey all of God’s laws.  I rationalized my behavior by telling myself that I was doing better than most of my friends.  But I was only fooling myself.  Finally God convicted me of my lukewarm ways.  He showed me that the way that seems right to me results in . . . death  (Proverbs 14:12).  One of my areas of disobedience was keeping the Sabbath.

At times I have wondered why keeping the Sabbath is so important to God.  Deep down inside, I wondered, why was it even included in the ten commandments?   Breaking the Sabbath certainly isn’t the equivalent of murder or adultery.  Or is it?  In Exodus 35:2, Moses told the Israelites, “Whoever does any work on it (the Sabbath) must be put to death.”  Sounds like God took it very seriously.

Keith Boyd, pastor of Trinity Baptist Church on the Upper East Side of Manhattan, says we need to keep the Sabbath because “if we don’t keep that commandment well, then we won’t be able to keep the others.”


2.  STOP.  Quit.  Cease.  I am convinced that the only way to understand the importance of the Sabbath is to just do it.  Some things must be experienced.  We have to stop and cease from our activities to fully recognize what God is doing in our lives.

One Sunday morning I had my hand halfway in the washing machine when I heard God say, “Stop!”  “Come on Lord,” I argued.  “It is just one load of clothes I didn’t get to yesterday.  It won’t wear me out to toss them in the dryer.”  Silence.  The kind of silence that says, I’m not going to argue with you, because you know what you need to do.  It wasn’t about fatigue, it was about obedience.

Phil Ashey, associate rector at Church of the Apostles in Fairfax, Virginia, says, “God didn’t stop creating after six days because he was tired.  God didn’t have to stop.  He chose to stop.  He could have kept going.  He could have created an eighth day and an eightieth day and an eight hundredth day.  He didn’t need to stop.  There is always more work to do.”

3.  Recognize that you need a break from the work of this world to see your life from God’s perspective.  “The purpose of the Sabbath,” says Keith Boyd, “is to rest, recreate, and reflect on God’s work.”  We can’t rest while we’re working.  We can’t recreate unless we cease from our labors.  We can’t take time to reflect on God’s work in our life without being still.

When we don’t take a break, we get caught up in the notion that worldly achievements will give our lives meaning and satisfy our longings, but only an intimate relationship with Jesus can meet those needs.

William Wilberforce, a leader in the fight to abolish slavery in the British Empire, once said, “Blessed be to God for the day of rest and religious occupation, wherein earthly things assume their true size.  Ambition is stunted.”

4.  Learn to be satisfied with what God has for you–materially, emotionally, and physically. When my son Sammy was ten he had a horrible case of strep that wouldn’t go away.  Every two weeks, when the nurse called to tell me that Sammy was still sick, I responded by going home and cleaning my house with a toothbrush.  Surely those germs were lurking somewhere, I thought.  I was determined to hunt them down and wipe them out!

One time, as I wearily wiped another doorknob, God spoke to me.  “You don’t need to be doing this,” he told me.  “It’s not going to make any difference.”  I didn’t want to hear this. I wanted to do something–anything–to make my son well, but the outcome was in God’s hands, not mine.

We are a restless generation, rarely satisfied with what God has given us, always wanting more.  We want to make things happen and we think that our efforts will yield the desired results.  We need to come to God, admit our desire for control, like I did, and die to it.

“God invites us to learn to stand back and be as satisfied with what God has done as God is.  To enter into a place of delight with God and simply receive from him,” says Ashey.

5.  Let go of the idea that you have to do it.  I often find myself thinking that I have to do it or it won’t be done RIGHT.  “We think our work is indispensable,” says Ashey.  “We think that if I am not there, on the job, making sure that it is happening, then everything will fall apart.”

Jack Hayford, pastor of Church of the Word in Van Nuys, California, says,  observing the Sabbath is a “regular reminder, on a weekly basis, that you can’t get it all done.  You can’t do it without God, not well, and not fulfillingly, not adequately, and not as creatively and not as satisfyingly as with God’s help.” 

6.  Prayerfully make some concrete rules.  If you are married, agree with your spouse on a time and day of the week.  Most will want to have their Sabbath on Sunday.  Pastors who work on Sunday need to choose another day.  “Most of all don’t let the choice of day, an issue that has caused denominations to split, keep you from keeping the Sabbath,” cautions Ashey.  In our family, we cease our labors at 5:00 PM on Saturday and break the Sabbath at 5:00 PM on Sunday.

Once you settle on a day, make some ground rules using Boyd’s guidelines: is it recreation?  Is it restful? or is it reflective?    Our family attends church services on Saturday evening as the start to our Sabbath, or if we miss that we drag ourselves out of bed in the morning to attend services, no matter how tired or frazzled we feel, unless we are ill.  We don’t do laundry, clean house, go shopping, or cook elaborate meals.  We take walks, read, visit with friends, nap, putter in the garden.  On snowy days, we go sledding.  In the summer, we often swim in the local pool.

I find it especially important to eliminate activities that are stressful.  For me this eliminates almost all entertaining except having friends over for pizza or leftovers.  I like to focus on activities where I can hear God, such as being outside in nature.

Joshua M. Peck, a Rockland County, New York publicist and Conservative Jew, says Orthodox Jews do not do commerce of any kind on the Sabbath–no buying or selling.  Even turning electrical appliances off and on or riding in cars is prohibited.  In the Jewish faith, married couples are encouraged to have sexual relations on the Sabbath.  After morning services at the synagogue, family and friends typically gather for a long, relaxing meal.

If you fail and get caught up in doing, repent and ask God to forgive you.  Then try again.  Ask God to give you strength and wisdom to keep a Sabbath that pleases Him.  It took our family many starts and fits before we were successful Sabbath keepers.

If you and your spouse can’t agree on every rule, don’t despair.  My husband, Sam, and my son, Sammy, think watching Sunday afternoon football is a wonderful way to celebrate the Sabbath!  I’m not crazy about their choice, but I let it go.  While they watch the game, I take a nap or read a book.  When the game is over, we take a walk together.

In 1924, Eric Liddell stunned the world by refusing to run the 100 meter race at the Paris Olympics because the trials were scheduled on Sunday.  His dedication to God’s law still convicts me, paltry Sabbath keeper that I am.   Liddell went on to win a gold medal in another race–the 400 meter–a race that he was not expected to win.

I believe God gave us the Sabbath because he loves us.  He doesn’t want us to become enslaved to achievement, performance, and perfection.  Instead, he wants us to know the satisfaction and security that comes from knowing his power, his provision, and his purpose as we break from our work and turn to see his creative work in our lives.

What make the Life Model (and Restarting) unique

August 5, 2011

Churches are typically made up of two groups of people: Those who say they are “just fine” and those who feel that they need help. Those who need help often feel that they don’t belong, that everyone else’s needs are being met—but not theirs–and that no one really cares about them. Often the people who are “just fine” are coaxed or goaded or guilted into helping the needy ones, which would be okay if it really helped, but it usually does not. Those one-sided relationships often become burdensome because the needy people feel that they never get enough and those who are “just fine” feel resentful and wonder why the needy ones can’t get it together.

The Life Model has answers for this age-old dilemma because it combines character development and healing.

About three years ago I had a intern who introduced me to the Life Model.  The life model came out of a ministry to street kids in Van Nuys California called Shepherds House. As the ministry grew the leaders began to  see Christian leaders who were struggling. They began to question why some people came to Christ and began to grow while others seem stuck and kept relapsing.  At one point they were seeing about a thousand people a month. They began to examine people on a case-by-case basis so as to identify what people need to thrive.  What they learned integrated well with groundbreaking work on the brain as well as infant and child development. They were informed by their Biblical worldview and their experience with healing prayer and over time came up with programs that helps our left brains understand while our right brains receives the non-verbal training it needs.

We are huge fans of Theophostic at Church of the Apostles, but what we have found is that Theophostic alone is not enough. It is healing, and comforting and you would think this would be enough, to connect with God and have him dispell the lies. But we find some people settle into their dysfunction. They are comforted into complacency.  Ed Smith the founder of TPM freely acknowledges that TPM exposes lies and renews the mind, marvelously– but it does not give us all that we need.  We also need community; we need to know what is our job, where we have deficits and what we need to recover.  If you never learned to tame your cravings as a child, TPM will help uncover the lies you believe that make taming those cravings so pernicious, but in the end you will have to abstain. You will need to follow the ancient spiritual practices of fasting if you want to tame them. If you never learned to do hard things (another childhood task) you have to start doing them.  If, like me, you fail to explain yourself to those who misunderstand you, you have to start doing it. Getting TPM helps me be at peace when I approach those who have misunderstood me but I still needed to force myself to go back to the person and explain, “I don’t think you understood my heart here.”  It is easy to think it is their job, after all we’re they the ones who impuned my motives? But the Life Model makes it clear that helping people understand me it is a childhood task, one someone in their fifties should not find so difficult. Sigh. TPM helps in so many ways: it is transforming to know you are loved and have value but it does not fix the whole problem.

The Life Model is not just for the people who we typically think of as being wounded. Everyone is missing something they should have gotten as children. Often we don’t know what we are missing.  What we experienced as children feels normal because that was our model, all we had.

When I first encountered the Life Model, I thought that I was doing rather well and I was compared to where I used to be. I had been running the Healing Center at Church of the Apostles for four years and I had processed much of my pain.  I no longer had frequent meltdowns. But I had never held my life up to any kind of ideal measuring stick. It is a little akin to growing up in Japan and thinking you are tall until you visit Sweden.  Or Sudan.

The Life Model provides just such a measuring stick.  It has evolved into a think tank where pastors, psychiatrists, social workers and teachers have come together to define where we should be–had life been perfect–and how we can get there, even though it wasn’t. Not that we will ever reach perfection but there is so much more maturing that we can do!  It is joyful, fulfilling to find our true hearts and begin to live out of that solid center.

Much of the early work was done by Jane Willard the wife of the late Dallas Willard, but there are other familiar names that are involved like Daniel Amen, famous for scanning tens of thousands of brains, and other not so well known names like Jim Wilder who mentors many of the Life Model players. Karl Lehman, Chris and Jen Coursey, and Ed and Maritza Khouri.

The life Model breaks life into stages: Infant, child, adult, parent and elder.  An infant should have his needs met without having to ask; a child learns to take care of himself. An adult learns to satisfy two people, at first a friend and later a mate.  A parent takes the whole family’s needs into account and an elder sees those who are at risk in the community and reaches out to them.  There are needs and tasks for each level. One of the biggest mistakes we make is when we try to become elders too soon. Parents need to raise their little ones; there will be plenty of time to save the world when their children are adults.

One of the hallmarks of the Life Model is the belief that we were created by God to live in joy, that joy should be our natural state. When I first heard this I gulped. I am pretty serious and I would not have characterized my normal state as one of joy.

Life is meant to be characterized by rhythms of joy and quiet. Knowing how to quiet yourself should have been learned in the arms of your mother but you can only download from her what she had to give. Do not worry, if you don’t have that skill! One of the first Life Model exercises is learning how to quiet yourself.

The Life Model also teaches that we are created as relational being, meant to attach to God and to a spiritual family. To thrive we need to live as if relationships are more important than anything else.

They also believe that we need more than teaching to heal. If understand principles were sufficient, the church in the west would be vibrant and whole. The western church has largely focused on the left brain, the part that is rational and logic, but apparent that is not enough. We need to train both the right and left hemispheres our brains so we can have healthy relationships much in the same way we train to learn to play a violin or speak Spanish. Reading about playing the violin is not going to make you even a mediocre performer.

On the Life Model website they write: “Contemporary Christianity has failure to achieve moral and character change. Beliefs do not change your character.”

Another belief is that someone can be gifted, even anointed and still not be mature.  It is like building a tall building. If the foundation is missing a few bricks it won’t matter at first, but as the building goes up (more responsibility), those missing bricks destabilize the entire structure.

Most people don’t recognize what they are missing.

Addictions come from a catastrophic failure to reach adult mature and mimic the ideal rhythms of joy and quiet.  Some drugs mimic quiet; other mimic joy but they are all counterfeits, taking the place of the joy and quiet that should come from within as we connect deeply to God and safe people. So the addict who uses something to calm himself is looking for quiet while the addict who uses to get high is looking for joy.

Another eye opening concept for me was the realization that we can miss out on infant maturity primarily because the adults who took care of us did not know what we needed, and yet we can still appear fairly mature.  The Life Model calls this pseudo-maturity and likens it to flying upside down:  The plane that is your life appears to be at the right elevation but if you look closely it is upside down. Ouch! We know how to do hard things, but don’t know how to receive or rest or be still before God.  Skills we should have mastered in infancy. In our culture, the pseudo-mature often rise to the top where they burn out or become addicted to something to get them through. Sadly you are only as mature as the lowest hole in your wall. So pseudo mature people are . . . infants.

The average American man is halfway through childhood maturity; the average woman is half way through adult maturity. No wonder our nation is in trouble!

Life Model program are solution based. That means you don’t just learn about principles, you also exercise your brain (play the violin) so your brain and body learn the skills it needs to connect to God and people.  You can grow and mature.

When I first heard about brain skills I thought, what?  I pictured people sitting in yoga position humming. But the exercises are as simple as inviting God to speak and listening to him. Being quiet with a group of people.  Practicing telling short stories about your life to other people, walking in sync with two other people, learning to recognize when someone is overwhelmed so you can give them room, evaluating your maturity using an easy checklist, recognizing your own attachment style and attachment pain. So much of what is learn is what healthy, socially-skilled adults learned in childhood, but we all have deficits so if I can’t return to joy from anger but someone else in my group can, I can connect with them and over time download what they have.

Because there are so many players involved in developing the Life Model there are many ways to experience it—lots of books, DVDs, online essays, conferences and at least three websites.  The original way people learned was by attending a one week conference in July. They have four levels and participants go every year for four years.  People rave about these conferences but they are expensive—nearly 1000 bucks for the conference registration with hotel bills and transportation on top of that and they are only held in two locations—Edmonton, Alberta, Canada and Peoria, Illinois.  I am not making this up!  And you had to go with a bonded pair—two sisters, a husband and wife, mother and son—someone with whom you have a permanent bond.

In 2007 one of the Life Model developers, Ed Khouri, decided to develop a program that could be done in groups so churches and recovery groups would have another way to learn the material and practice the brain skills as well as develop community.  He knew that most addicts have burned their bridges and did not have a family member who would be willing to spend a week–and a lot of money to bond more deeply with them. No, I don’t think so! Restarting was the first module in Ed Khouri’s program. In October, 2013 a prequel book, Joy Starts Here, was released. The program is comprised of five modules Restarting, Forming, Belonging, Healing and Loving; each runs 12 weeks. The first three modules are currently available the other two are still in development.

What kinds of things do you do in Restarting?

Every week you watch a DVD—between 25 and 45 minutes long, and then you have exercises you do in groups of three that are the equivalent of brain training. I have to admit that I was skeptical because so many groups talk about transforming lives so in 2009 I ran two test groups and saw the change before my eyes.  I don’t know that I understand it entirely but somehow you are giving each other what you should have gotten as children and infants which causes transformation.

Some of the topics you learn about in Restarting include:

Painful emotions

Healthy relationships

Toxic relationships

Trauma, hope and recovery

Leaving co-dependency behind




You learn to tell great stories from your life in two to three minutes, you learn to express appreciation, you learn to connect with God experientially, you learn to recognize when you are in attachment pain, you learn to build joy, so you increase capacity and at the end of the class you evaluate your maturity.

You DON”T spend a lot of time talking about your problems.  You DON’T spend time problem solving or trying to fix each other. You DON’T share painful details of your story (we teach you how to take the thorns out of your story).

You DO connect with God interactively and listen to him.  You DO learn how to better regulate your emotional pain and pleasure so your attachment to BEEPS does not run your life.

This one of my favorite Life Model stories from Jim Wilder’s book: A Complete Guide to Living with Men. This story shows what can happen, over time, when a group comes together and does the work.

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Here is an example of a spiritual family and how it might work. A small church, comprised largely of cowboys and rodeo riders, asked me to do a men’s weekend. During that weekend we talked about the levels of maturity enough that all the men identified their own level. There were two elders, about three fathers, five adults and 20 boys and infants. By the end of the weekend the elders, fathers and adults decided (on their own) to help the boys and infants mature. Remember that when I say infants we are talking about men in their 20s, 30s, and even 60s.  Each of the children/infants checked off a list of the needs and task they had yet to complete to become adults. The group, under the direction of the elders, assigned men who were strong in those areas to guide the immature men through to adult maturity. One of the least mature men was Bob, the town drunk. The elders assigned three men to him. When I returned to that town a number of years later Bob was a sober father of two with a happy wife. There were three men glowing with pride in how Bob had grown. The entire group of men was heavily involved in summer and after-school programs for the community children—a sign of life to give.

Life Model websites



http://thrivingrecovery.org/    Ed Khouri

http://www.equippinghearts.com/  Ed and Maritza Khouri

http://www.thrivetoday.org/  Chris and Jen Coursey

http://www.kclehman.com/  Karl and Charlotte Lehman


The Life Model is the best model I have seen for bringing Christ to the center of counseling and restoring the disintegrating community fabric within Christian churches.

Dr. Dallas Willard
Speaker, Author, Professor of Philosophy USC


The answer given in the Life Model is very real—a combination of healthy spirituality, intellectual insight, a need for community and friendship—all put together to help us become transformed.

Dr. Francis MacNutt
Founding Director, Christian Healing Ministries

My counseling practice has been revolutionized by what I have learned from Dr. Wilder and the Shepherd’s House team.  Utilizing the principles from your books and the Thriving: Recover Your Life materials, I have been able to give the parents of the children I work with simple, do-able activities to build bonds with their kids and make a difference.  I can also explain to the parents why they work, which gets them more on-board with doing them. 

The Life Model is more practical and applicable than any of the theories I learned in my master’s program or since.  It makes sense and it works.  I can apply the theory to what’s going on in my clients’ lives (not to mention my own) and provide simple, practical ways for them to make the changes that they need to make.  Thanks for making that possible!

 Dawn C. Bartels, M.A., L.M.H.C.
(Licensed Mental Health Counselor) Orlando, FL

To read more endorsements see: http://www.lifemodel.org/info.php?page=endorseLM

Why I am fasting for my dad

May 29, 2009

I wrote this article more than seven years ago, when my dad was still playing tennis most mornings and seemed invincible. Now he is dying. On Wednesday I will fly to L.A. to see him, perhaps for the last time. He has not seen a doctor in 45 years, yet it is clear that he has Parkinson’s and maybe something else. He is not well. He is in bed more than 20 hours a day, he  shuffles along using the furniture and walls for balance and he has fallen silent. It is sad to see a man, who played tennis so well that I was helpless to return his serves, unable to stand upright.

Although he has not left the house for a month or more, he holds fast to his hope that he will be healed by Christian Science.  I believe he is dying and am praying that he will come to the end of himself and cry out to Jesus.

Please pray for me as I travel, June 3 to 10, and enjoy this piece which was originally published in Virtue Magazine.  It seems especially poignant to me now and was never more true.

I wasn’t raised in a Christian home.  I was ten before I heard the gospel for the first time when a school chum invited me to her Sunday school.  I’d been to Sunday school a handful of times before, but this Sunday school was different. It was held in a small garage behind an old house–a relic from the days before the church owned the property.  My friend and I sat in the old garage, carpet at our feet but the garage door still visible straight ahead.  I remember listening to the thin, gray-haired lady who led the singing up front.  She talks about God like she knows Him, I thought.  I had never heard anyone speak of God in this way.  How could this be? I wondered.  Could anyone really know God the way they knew their mother or father? Their brothers or sisters?

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